ok i feel damn bad now. its seven pm now and i jus got back home. i stayed back in sch the whole day jus to play soccer....wat the hell is this. although i did mugged for most of my morning. but i still feel veri bad for not doing any work in the afternoon. but i guess that's the way it is now, can't change anything already. i will make it up tonite.

played like hell today, played like till my left leg cramp. i hope i dun get tired b4 i even start to mug...

....guess i've no more reasons to be online anymore after updating my blog....

yes, i'm back... jus mugged for five hours, but i had a thirty minutes break in between.

today was fun, after having a lecture in the morning, went to play soccer with syafiq's and hadi's j1 frenz.....but i twisted my knee in the process, so the tendon in my leg is veri painful now....argggggggghhhhhhhh~~~~~~~ and my face now is so red...o ya and i skipped my lunch today, for the sake of keeping up with my study time table.

The time now is 7.47pm. In 15mins time, i'll be outta here mugging for 5 hours. So its like 8pm to 1am. i'll probably come back at 1am to continue the blog.....gd luck to me.....

Want To Know Which Element You Are?

You are Spirit!

Truly a rare breed, you're calm and thoughtful
but still know how to live life. Things are taken slowly but your large list of experiences (yours as well
as others) can help you adapt to new situations with little trouble or people being hurt. Unfortunately,
you're the most likely to ignore yourself over other people. Emotions rule you, and though you are quick
to kindness, your anger could scare the fiercest of creatures. Learn to relax a bit and live your own life.


Best Match: Fire, they'll pull you out of your shell and teach you plenty of things in life.

Worst Match: Water, they're too intent on their emotions to notice yours.





Streea wasted a bunch of time making this test.

right let's round up my whole week. there are several lessons, unsound rules actually, that i've learnt during this week and each passing day of this already gone week surprises the hella outta me...so here goes..

One of the very encouraging thing that happened is that i'm finally back to study mode. Courtesy to the acjc prelims and my mom's golden words of encouragement, i've managed to pull myself together and out off the slacker mode. well wat my mom told me was this, let me try to reenact the whole situation.

"IF YOU ARE NOT GONNA STUDY NOW, THERE WILL NOT BE EVEN ONE CHANCE FOR YOU TO DO SO AFTER 'A' LEVELS!", following this was, "YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO GO OUT ANYMORE, NO MORE SOCCER, YOU UNDERSTAND!?"

if you haven't guess wat my response was yet, i slammed the door straight at her face. As for the lesson i learnt, fear is neccesarily virulent. even if u dun like the sound of it, you would jus get scared in the end actually....

Second thing i learnt this week, its an unspoken code of honor for men to stay away from other guy's girlfren...YOU WOULDN'T GET A HAPPY ENDING ANYWAY! SO JUS FCUK AWAY FROM HER!

Cuong msged everyone to apologise for his seeming unpleasantaries to us during the soccer season, and what do i think abt it, it cannot be better summarise by this quote from Ph.d Wu Gang Lin(self-acclaimed), "ahem...*coughs*.....*caazzz, PHUI!*...To forgive is a must, but to forget is up to you... *coughs*.", he's got SARS you see....

i'm on fire tonight man, its been so long since i typed such a long blog entry....ok hafta go study again...

*yawn* never go to sch today. think i'm quite slack. Couldnt force myself to go to sch today cos yesterday nite slept veri late, so its like quite tired hahaha. NO i'm not slack. jus studied for 2 hours. guess i'll go study a few more hours b4 i call it a day.

Je m'ennuie de vous....

A wretched soul, bruised with adversity,
We bid be quiet when we hear it cry;
But were we burdened with like weight of pain,
As much or more we should ourselves complain.

And thus I clothe my naked villainy
With old odd ends, stol'n forth of holy writ;
And seem a saint, when most I play the devil.

-William Shakespeare

Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

-Albert Einstein

ok....i'm rather depressed from my prelims now. now i do not know wat to trust and wat to do anymore...imagine working hard and not getting wat u deserve. Knock Knock! ARE YOU SLEEPING, GOD? Now i'm actually convinced that the world is not fair at all...

but no la, i'm not abt to get knock down by some man-made education system, especially not one created by Singapore.

to put it accurately, i'm actually more angry then down. WAT HAVE I DONE WRONG!? IS STUDYING WRONG?! ARE THE TEACHERS WRONG?! IS MY ENVIRONMENT WRONG!?.......watever it is i guess i'll jus have to play the cards that are given.

RIGHT, enough abt me, syafiq wat's wrong with u....why do u look so weak nowadays, you're ok rite? sometimes i really feel sorri for u, looking at how your life is being sucked away from u day after day. but you are seriously giving me confused signals, when i see u looking unwell during the morning, you surprise me by playing so aggressively during soccer...hmmmm....perhaps we should play soccer more often. hahaha. get lively man, i dun wan to lose a teammate like u.

some nice quotes

"Don't let my unseriousness make you think it isn't serious..."

"Knock hard, life is deaf."

"DRUNKENNESS, noun: A temporary but popular cure for Catholicism."

"Ip you dun hold her hand, what makes you think she'll hold yours."

and a nice song for everyone who are depressed, angry or stressed with 'A' levels.

Tubthumping - Chumbawamba

We'll be singing
When we're winning
We'll be singing

I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down

Pissing the night away
Pissing the night away

He drinks a whisky drink
He drinks a vodka drink
He drinks a lager drink
He drinks a cider drink
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the good times
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the better times:

"Oh Danny Boy
Danny Boy
Danny Boy..."

I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down

Pissing the night away
Pissing the night away

He drinks a whisky drink
He drinks a vodka drink
He drinks a lager drink
He drinks a cider drink
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the good times
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the better times:

"Don't cry for me
Next door neighbour..."

I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down

We'll be singing
When we're winning
We'll be singing

HAHAHAHA....i dun believe it Tom Cruise is onli 168cm and a veri hot jap singer is onli 160cm, think his name is mu chun tuo zai....

o shit...my body getting weak onli..so long never exercise already....hai~

Here Is Gone - Goo Goo Dolls

you and i got somethin
but it's all and then it's nuthin to me, yeah
and i got my defenses
when it comes through your intentions for me, yeah

and we wake up in the breakdown
with the things we never thought we could be, yeah

i'm not the one who broke you
i'm not the one you should fear
we got to move you darlin
i thought i lost you somewhere
but you were never really ever there at all

and i want to get free
talk to me
i can feel you falling
and i wanted to be
all you need
somehow here is gone

i am no solution
to the sound of this pollution in me, yeah
and i was not the answer
so forget you ever thought it was me, yeah

i'm not the one who broke you
i'm not the one you should fear
we got to move you darlin
i thought i lost you somewhere
but you were never really ever there at all

and i want to get free
talk to me
i can feel you falling
and i wanted to be
all you need
somehow here is gone

and i dont need the fallout
of all the past that's in between us
and i'm not holding on
and all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

and i want to get free
talk to me
i can feel you falling
and i wanted to be
all you need
somehow here is gone

and i want to get free
talk to me
i can feel you falling

i know it's out there
i know it's out there
and i can feel you falling

i know it's out there
i know it's out there
somehow here is gone, yeah

i know it's out there
i know it's out there
somehow here is gone, yeah

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Second Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

friday morning now sia.....wednesday nite was a shitter..........but i'll probably wan to relive it again, haha.

schizoprenic pple has always amaze me, and i do not know why. probably becos of the two split personality the one single person share. living the two different life at the same time or diff point of time or another. that single person embodies 2 diff lifes altogether. one may be wat the world wans to see of you, and the other, wat u wan to see yourself as. it could be a life of solitude and another of (some word). i've forgotten the word to describe a life of merry making and partying, i'll come back to fill it up when i remember, hahaha.

ok....gotta go get back my to my real life now....

DAREN YOU'RE DAMN BASTARD MAN, for all those who advocate cuong or in love with cuong or if you're cuong pls do not go read daren's blog, cos u might suddenly feel the surge of anger and probably be motivated to kill daren. seriously speaking, daren's blog was a never meant to be, and shouldnt have happen.
(P.S. Daren you're so dead when he sees this man.)

neway, tuesday morning seem great. rained veri heavily durin the night, not bad sial. but the sleep wasnt at all peaceful. nowadays or nowanights, my sleep has been plagued by nonsensical dreams, somewat like i'm living a new life. YES ITS A DREAM SITCOM, IT CONTINUES. haha. but somehow enjoys living the dream. jus like wat john keating said, 'Only in their dreams can men truly be free. Twas always true, always twas will be.'.

......today's acjc teacher's day celebration is so lame, the onli good thing that happen is THE BHANGRA BOYS, especially the j3 guy, the explosiveness of his dance moves take my breathe away man.

after the celebration we went to play soccer at acsi.....ok shan't tok abt it. but i must say the teachers in acsi are seriously bitches, can't even play anywhere in acsi. in the end have to go play at the basketball court instead, wat nonsense. but still we had some fun.

BOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO~~Alan left for Thailand today. couldnt send him off cos of my stupid tuition. the tuition teacher is seriously a bitch. msged her at 9am in the morning and she tell me she onli read the msg at 4.30am. so in the end hafta have tuition up til 7. as a result i cannot go to the airport to send alan off. :..( nvm i'll make it up to him when he comes back.

hmmm....staring at my jigsaw puzzle on the wall. its a constellation map with alot of stars. i think its a view from the northern hemisphere, cos i could see the orion and scorpio and leo and diff diff other constellation....and these constellation can onli be seen in the northern hemisphere i think. think i should start on another jigsaw puzzle project.....haven't been doing one for a long time already.

Better Man

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man