saturday was an eventful day. i dedicate today's blog to xiaoqing and syafiq.

i went out with my class today! yeah! finally i saw xiaoqing and syafiq together. they look so happy. such a cute couple. xiaoqing with the blur character. syafiq with the playful character. they both make such a cute couple. so envious. but dun get me wrong, what i meant by envious is that i didn't know couples can be so sweet and fun. haha from now on i'll refer xiaoqing and syafiq as xiaofiq for simplicity sake.

xiaofiq's going through honeymoon period eh... i pray you all stay sweet and loving as always like today, and everyday's honeymoon for you all. but if everyday couldn't be honeymoon for xiaofiq, i still hope you guys stay true to the path that you all have chosen to walk down together. no matter what happens, always remember the very first reason why've you guys have decided to get together. if it ever hits the rough patch, remember that you guys have taken a considerable amount of period of time just to be together. don't ever let the unneccesaries get in between you guys.

awww....SO HEARTWARMING...

what is it between other people and me that seperates me from them? how can i do away with this thing that is between them and me? i've already done something about it. so what is it that is still between them and me? is there something in my life that i cannot control? is this what the chinese serial drama always calls it, there is no fate between them and me?

i am increasingly disliking the idea of fate.

i'm enlightened now.

i will not give up. if something i've done cannot bring me to them. it onli goes to show that this method DON'T WORK & it ISN'T EFFECTIVE. i'll try again, another way, a different way. i cannot give up now. i'll stay true to my choice that i've made. resolution will stick with me until i fulfill what i've set out to do.

Alpha niner to HQ. Plan A has failed. Proceeding on to Plan B...

hi i'm back again to this blog. in regards to the previous entry that i made, i have found something to write upon. thanks to ms xiaoqing's blog.

''How can you see what your life is worth or where your value lies? How do you measure the worth of a man? in wealth or strength or size? in how much he gained or how much he gave?'', Xiaoqing's blog. a quote from her blog when u enter her site. it is located on the top of her tagboard. i had a sudden urge to answer this question...

we live in this ever expanding universe, that is constantly changing. since its expanding it means its always getting bigger. since its always getting bigger and bigger and bigger...we, in relative, gets smaller and smaller, you get me rite? does that mean the value of human existence diminishes? does it mean we are getting worthless by the seconds? i believe that this question is not a question of the different worth between different man. we should look at it from a higher point of view, and measure our worth in the universe. and this worth is probably something that takes a longer time to erode to infinite zero then other worth.

everything we do everyday changes our environment and surroundings. even a mere observation, according to some greek philosopher whom i forgot his name, is changing the thing that is being observed. that is assuming he's correct. but the change will be so infinitely small and insignificant since our world is always expanding, that we can ignore this change that we unknowingly made. even if we change something, that change is going to be even more infinitely smaller then the already infinitely small previous change that we make. therefore this paragraph concludes that our existence cannot be measured by the things we do or have. cos our worth will diminish, things that we gained, lost, received, gave will all diminish, and there is no way we can change this fact.

so what exactly measures a person's worth?

i have to say it is men's beliefs. note that i use the plural form. one man cannot do anything. but his beliefs, can bring together other man with the same ideals. that's what happening now. PAP has a common goal to bring singapore to prosperity. made a change to a country to 3 million people living on this island. guomintang has the resolutino to ''free'' taiwan from china, if i'm not wrong haha. bin laden brought the whole of afghanistan to the ground, and crashed usa's seemingly secure environment. 2 planes from bin laden rocked the whole planet earth's security and brought a new age to terrorism. not in a good way though i can say that he has great worth on this planet.

its what running the world now. men's beliefs. is your beliefs strong enough to change other people's life? how worthy are you to uphold the beliefs that you have always talked about? balian had thousands killed during the war with saladin to protect jerusalem becos he wanted to uphold the beliefs of a knight. and he could've been king and avoided war with saladin. can you do that? Now, how'll you uphold your beliefs and make your existence in this universe substantial?

Music - Surfing the Bigbeat
Temperature - 22 degrees celcius
Mood - Restless
Time - 1256hrs

i'm feeling hungry. i need food! what should i say today...i do not know wat to write. i do not understand why pple have so much to put on site everyday, religiously keeping to the process of putting something abt their lives on net.

AHA today my cousin irene got married. WHoooo~

she looked so pretty today. the wedding was a military wedding. She's the first of my generation to get married, she looked happyyyyy....geezz

Today's topic ''CHOICES''.

ever been caught in crossroads where u have to make a choice? who doesn't, rite? but the more i focus my attention on the word 'choice', i started realising that every single thing tt i do in my life requires, in some way or another, for me to select a route of advance.

like recently, i've been caught in tight situations and dilemmas. i've been subconciously asking myself ''Now, what'll you do?''. this question is so powerful, i realise myself doing more.

i also realise, the reason why some pple are more successful then the others, is simply bcos of the fact that they have more resolution then others in keeping true to the choices that they made.

yup, tt's rite. choice empowers.

uhm.. this is my first time blogging my life on the web again after 2yrs. the reason why i stopped 2 yrs ago was because of my 'A' level examination and later on bcos of army.

i've already spent 1yr 4mths and 3days of my life in army and i've 8 more months to go b4 i step out of the no.4 uniform and into civilian clothes again.

over these period of time, i've come to realise alot of things tt i did not when i'm outside there. importance of family and friends. its so intriguing how much army can change a person so much. or at least for me i know i've changed.

if u compare the tone of how i write my blog now and 2 yrs ago, u might realise i sound more mature now...haa